I don't know if I have 32 teeth.

I turned 32 recently. Oddly enough, I haven't given the number much thought.

I was obsessed about turning 30. Excited and oddly impatient. For the longest time I have believed that a woman truly comes into her own in her 30s. Many would disagree, but the subtle changes I have noticed in myself and the friends around me who are 30 (or more), have convinced me that one is more her own person in her 30s than in her 20s.

But I don't want to get into that right now. I would like to borrow "30 in 2005"'s idea of putting down 32 things to celebrate my burdey. 32 things about me, myself and D. Not very original of me. But that doesn't bother me. Thank you "30 in 2005"!

Ok so here goes -

1) I am 32 but I don't know if I have 32 teeth. The next visit to the dentist shall reveal all.

2) I am much calmer and less judgmental as a person but I have a long way to go before I reach where I would like to be as far as these two qualities are concerned.

3) I am inherently emotional about my friends and people I am close to, and am not apologetic about it. I love them to death and will not think twice before doing something for them.

4) I am an elephant when it comes to remembering insults or hurts. I find it hard to forget and forgive. An incident or a remark or a hurt will be carried in my heart like a prized possession. To be taken out from time to time and examined and thought about. I am trying to change this in myself but haven't done too well as yet!

5) I love mangoes and miss eating them in Sing. I had a mango everyday for the first 3 weeks of being in India. Am a bit mangoed out now, but will not refuse one if offered!

6) I love exclamation marks and try and use them as often as I can in messages and emails. My mood is mostly reflected in the number of exclamation marks used in what I write.

7) I am not a long distance relationship person. I have been apart for 58 days from A and it is hard. I wouldn't recommend a long distance relationship to anyone - if they have a choice. It is one of the hardest things I have been through in my life. I try not to think of it too much in case I have a mental shut down.

8) I love the smell of wet earth, just as it starts raining. But have not smelt it this time in Delhi. Not even once. My nose wasn't even blocked!!

9) Watching films is like food for me. I like to watch anything and everything except horror films. I have seen only one film in the hall this time and I am getting withdrawal symptoms.

10) Travelling with A is an addiction. I can't wait for my next trip. It may be a short one but it may happen soon. Like in the next 10 days!!!!!!

11) I love making lists. For anything. Daily to-do sort, party lists, places to travel, thoughts in my head.... pretty much anything. Am sure you get it!

12) This 32 things list is damn tiring.

13) I can't wait to cut my hair. Its been long for too long! It is lank and flat and not interesting. I am on the look out for a cool short hairstyle. Not too short though.

14) I miss my own space. Living with my mum is great and I am looked after, fed, loved but I miss my own bed, my room, my windows and the view outside...

15) I am clearer about who I am and who I want to be. I wasn't so in my 20s. I was eager to be someone for everyone. Change myself into different people to please everyone. I wasn't schizophrenic. But constantly worried about pleasing everyone. That's changed for sure!

16) I am a beach bum. I am a mountain baby. I am a beach bum. I am a mountain baby. I am a beach bum. I am a mountain baby. Sigh. I don't know.

17) I need to paint. Soon. I miss it. I need to do something with colours. Anything with colours would be fine.

18) I almost met Sachin Tendulkar. But it wasn't meant to be. I was weak kneed and excited at the prospect and all I wanted to do when I met him was get him to write - Dear A, Love (or whatever) SRT.

19) I was in a car that was rammed into by Abhishek Bachchan's security in Mumbai. Didn't get to see the star but got to hear some choice words from the guards!!! When the bang wasn't even our fault. Oh well.

20) Seriously this is very tiring.

21) I am not scared of death. As a concept. But am terrified of it in respect to people that I love. Don't think I will handle that very well.

22) I think about death. Not often but sometimes. It is a perverse sort of fantasy. I die and then I think about the lives of people who are around me. I don't die and someone really close to me does. How does my life change....

23) I like dark books. Sad writing has always appealed to me. Still does. I wrote appallingly bad morose prose/poetry in school and college. Hopefully I have thrown all of it and no one has to be subjected to reading it ever again.

24) I think I need glasses. My eyes fuzz over sometimes when I sit at the computer.

25) I love weddings and the dancing and the dressing up that goes with it. A close friend is getting married soon and I can't wait.

26) I want to take a holiday with a few of my close friends and it seems like a highly improbable dream. I want to try and make it happen over the next year or two for sure.

27) I am forcing myself to write stuff now and it's all dragging out now...

28) I wonder who all read this blog. I know one or two people definitely do...

29) Am flirting with the idea of getting a tattoo done. The pain factor puts me off and the fact that my mother in law hates the whole concept.

30) I want to be fit. I have done nothing to change my current unfit state though and it looks like I am not going to do anything for a while.

31) I will experiment with different things to eat but will not drink snake blood.

32) I am thinking about a change of profession.

Oh my god. What the hell was that????????????
Hats off to whoever bothers to go through this shite.